This whole weekend business isn't for the faint of heart.

I stay busy not because I have more energy or drive or motivation than the average person.

I stay busy because it staves off the sadness.

Being too busy to get lost in one's own thoughts has its psychological advantages, as does being too exhausted at the end of the day to let my restless mind get the best of me.

Why else would an introvert like me, who, to be honest, revels in silence sometimes, turn the volume all the way up and keep dialing up the YouTube videos every night until I fall asleep in the middle of one?

Times like these I'm a little scared to be alone with myself.